Respectfully yours.

I saw a bumper sticker today that said "Freedom isn't free."

It's right.

Thank you. Not just to soldiers or government people. But to everyone who has supported those people and helped them help us. I'm sorry for taking it for granted.

Day 1.

1. It's just a dress. I'll get married whether I have the perfect dress or not.

2. The day is not about me. It's our day. I would never want any of this if it wasn't with him.

3. I am getting married. It's so real. Faced with the first decision about getting married (after deciding to get married) I feel grounded and relieved. It's going to happen.

Kate Winslet - What If - Official Music Video

I find it very amusing that I never saw this before considering I've had a Kate Winslet obsession since I was 13 years old.

"Who are you?"

If you asked me a week ago I would have started with “I’m a 23 year old female. Just right out of college. Engaged to my long time boyfriend and right now I’m working as a diagnostic testing technician at a Neurologist's Office in Jacksonville, FL.”

I’ve decided to change my approach about myself.

I am Kady. I am starting simple. I am starting over.

I forgot that people can change. That I can change.

Everyday I try to be a good person. But what I should be doing is trying to be a better person. I want more in my life than what I'm getting... so I need to give more.

More love, more energy, more life. MAKE AN EFFORT.

And in the end the love you take is equal to the love you make.

Maybe the Beatles are starting to grow on me.

What am I so afraid of?

What?

Why can't I reach out to people?

What am I so afraid of?

What am I so afraid of.

Me.

I hardly think about myself. My attributes, my personality. What I like, what I don't like. I rarely share that with others. I shape my world around convenience, trying to be the most efficient and time saving person. Trying to be what I think I should be. Avoiding emotions and doubt and dishonesty. Trying to be logical and sensible and not just a girl. I want to be a woman. A strong woman with intellect, power, and a wonderful life. But Most of all: pride. I want to be proud of what I do.

The strangest part about all of this is that I feel like it changes too frequently to put it into absolutes. So everything I just said will change tomorrow. With one touch of my fiancee's hand I will forget everything else and melt into him. I will look at a baby and feel this passion for making one of my own. I will hear music so graceful and bittersweet that I will want to quit my job and just wright all day and night. One phone call from my dad will make me never want to leave here. There are endless possibilities to what you can be and who you can be. It's not your past that defines you or what you want to do. What defines you is what makes you happy even as contradictory as that can be. The paradox is you.